The End and The Beginning

What would you do with your last day of freedom?

I plan to go shopping, pick up my prescription, get a manicure and take myself to a nice lunch. 

After nearly four months of being unemployed, I start a new job next week.

I say tomorrow is my final day of freedom because my nanny will be with the boys tomorrow. I guess it's more like "me time" rather then free time.

Anyway, I'm full of mixed emotions about going back to work: relief, anxiety, excitement, regret, sadness. Mostly I just think about how much I will miss my boys. I ache with missing them already.

Still, I am so lucky. Getting laid off from my old job was an amazing gift. It pushed me from my little nest. It gave me months to spend with August and Finley during a mind-blowingly beautiful time in their lives. It gave me time to regain my sanity, my balance, my self. Oh, and I got paid. And I found a new job I'm excited about. That is a blessing. 

Now, it's time to start a new chapter and try to keep hold of those things I located during my time off – sanity, balance, self.